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Blog. I miss you. Do you miss me? I have been neglecting my blog for quite some time now. Due to study reasons. Yes, study. I’ve been studying. Maths to be exact. I don’t think I can do my maths as good as I did last year. Simply because, form5’s topic are hard. And I don’t just mean hard, I mean hard. Play along if you may.

As for those who love me, I’d love to say THANK YOU so very much for the birthday wish. I am so touched by those who actually stayed up late just to wish me happy birthday. Thank you ever so much. I have to say, I love Fawaa’s message the most. :D

It’s because, in school, we have already started voting the form5 polls. There was this category that I’m dying to win. Which is “sunshine smile”. No, I do not know what it means but it seems nice to win something. Although, none actually voted me for that. Instead, they voted me for, friendliest, teachers pet and rascals. Funny ey? Not so. I’m friendly, yea. I get along easily with teachers, yea. Rascals? Where the heck did anyone ever think of me as that? I’m a nice girl who has yet to disappoint people. And Akif voted me for “FLIRT!” Ahaha. Oh, Fawaa’s wish was, “Omg mim! You’re seventeen already! Happy birthday sunshine smile. J I love you to the top! :-*” it may be nothing to you, but it means a lot to me. I’ve got 35 message wishes. Uncounted call wishes. And for those who forgot, I guess I’m not that important to you! Boohoo. I think I called Bob the longest. It was about 40++ minutes. We talked crap most of the time. He can sing. He wishes me to get a boyfriend. Sweetnya! Love you, Bob!

I have to say, school has been sad. For me. No, not school. Sports day preparation. It kills me. It tires me. It’s everything to me. And yet, no one has ever seen whatever I’ve done to the house and blames me for almost everything. Aku gedik. Aku macam-macam. Rumah Hijau gets bad name, all the blame goes to me. Is that how it should be? All someone has ever done was come up to me and state what she wants and she gets it the day after. The squad was nothing. First day of practice, neither one of the squad members even the leader even knows basic. But I was there to mould them. But has anyone ever seen that? NO! Why? Because certain teachers say I’m gedik. Why? Because we didn’t get anything out of the trip that we made at BB on Merentas Desa day. Want to know why? Because we were only searching for ideas. At that point, we had too many themes in our head. 4 of us went with too many ideas. We got in the car, explained everything. Got what we wanted and went back to school, things changed. Is it our fault that whatever we had searched for didn’t match the theme HE wanted? NO! He wasn’t even there. We went on with the theme we came up first for weeks. And there he comes with new ideas with nothing planned except for formation. What pisses me off is that, he does not bloody dare to actually stand up for what’s right. He just let people think that I’m at fault when others who were there know, that its not! And for that special someone, before everything started, you came up to me and say that you’re new. And that I can go up to her and tell her anything. I did. Everyone knows Hazim should be the anchor for tarik tali. Told her and she said I’m acting like the boss. HELLO! I was just telling her what’s best for the house. And there you go, last place for tarik tali. Bongkak sangat kan? BAGUS! Serves you right. I know the ups and downs of this sport thingy. I’ve been through it for three years. I helped out since I was in form3. I know how it is. But yea, maybe it’s because I’m gedik la kan? Lantak la. Let things be the way you, him and the rest wants it to be. Who am I? I’m only the Naib Pengerusi. Why listen to me? KAN!? When you had me, see where you were before. First! See where you are now, nowhere. Nice. Perfect. Oh and kalau kau ingat kau besar sangat, come say it in front of me ah. Nak jeling-jeling pulak. Sumpah aku cakap, kalau kalah this year, aku gelak besar depan kau! Aku text kau, apa? Kurang ajar sangat la? TAK KAN?! Dah tu? Kau dah cuak kan? Kau benci hypocrite. Look what you have turned out to be wei! LOOK! Kelakar la aku tengok orang yang cakap lain, buat lain. I thought you were different from many other teachers. I thought wrong. Nak tolong, pandai pulak cari. Esh! Hate you to bits. Instead of appreciation, this is what I get. Hurtful critics which aren’t even true.

I cried every single time I tell someone that story. And so, I made myself happy at desa. As I was laughing, talking, making jokes with the mamak, an old fag told me to shut up and jeling. DUDE! Jealous ke aku happy? Kau tak happy, masalah kau ah. Apa? Malam semalam tak dapat? Aku tau la kau tua, dah tak dapat nak enjoy macam aku. Takyah ah nak jeling. Aku tau kau tua, aku tau kau ada masalah. Aku tau semua tu. Orang pun benci kau macam kau benci aku. Tapi aku ada cakap depan kau? Tak. Sebab aku tau kau akan dapat malu. Kau hisap rokok kat dalam tempat mamak tuh, selamat ke? Nak mati cepat. Bagus ah. To hell you go. I’m sorry for those who’s reading this gets offended by it. But Sumpah aku tak puas hati dengan itu laki. No, I was ashamed for what he had done. Seriously, I’m not. Cause ye ah, dia jealous. Lawak bhai. Whatever ah. I went back home, text Amyn and Aniqi. As always. My lovers who has always been there for me. They aren’t really big help, but they make me laugh. Aniqi with his Hussein story. Amyn with his laugh and grr. Ahaha. I’m happy having them around. Gembira rasa hati ini. Oh and Amyn makes me Sumpah malu with certain thing. He called me up when he had his free call. The whole conversation made me so malu. My jaw hurt because I was smiling and laughing. I was so malu. Sumpah. It was embarrassing. Whatever ah. Aku happy.

s.o.d.a’s not in a good position right now. Don’t break up babies! DON’T! Ok, that’s it. Ahaha. I’m happy! No wait, not really. Despite the fact that I’m still pissed at Hijau, I’m happy. Intan turned 17. So will Fawaa on sports day! Happy birthday Intan. Happy birthday in advance Fawaa. Hamim satar loves you to the very end. I love my girlfriends to bits. Oh my oh! Ziera has this thing for the new kid in 5bumi! AWH! AHAHA! During tarik tali, the love bloomed. AHAH! What am I saying? Ahaha. During recess, awh. Alaa, cutenya. Ahahaha.