I could be in the middle of the crowd and it's pin drop silence and my head is spinning and turning not knowing what to think, say or do. Have I gone completely insane? Has SPM been knocking my head that hard? Am I actually losing my mind? What caused this? Oh my. I don't know. Maybe I've been nosing around too much about other people's problem that I could not care less about mine. Or maybe, just maybe, I could be missing somebody just a little too much now. Oh sweet Lord! Have mercy. I'm weak, getting weaker by the day.
Why did he come out of the blue? Why did he have to go so fast too? Mostly, why did we meet? Hate the fact that I'm actually falling for the wrong guy and knowing all this, I'm not stopping myself from falling. Care not what he is, care not what he does, care not what his histories are. I need him right next to me. Could be that I've yet found another lover? Does it really mean I'm blinded by love? God, help me. This is a mistake! Why did you appear and look me in the eye? Why did you have to do such things to such weak creature? Not knowing how life should be for the both of us, but I'm hoping that it involves no heartbreak, no teardrops every time I hear your song, our song. Can it end in a nice way? We could be bestfriends. Pretty please? I am up to the point where I can say that I don't know you but I need you. I'm not that desperate but I am in this matter.
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Riza, I know how much you're in love with Hamizan. And as much as I want to say, I know how it is to be in a long relationship and having it to end, I just can't. I've yet experienced it. But I can say that I know it's hard to let someone go. Baby, stop wasting your time working on a relationship when you know your heart is elsewhere. Go to where you know you belong and that's with Mizan. I don't know you well enough but it's killing me knowing that you're dying inside.
Mama loves you no matter what your decision is. But honey, make sure it suits you just fine.
xoxo!
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