jumpstart.

As much as I want to fall for someone, I choose not to. Turns out there are more to life than waiting. I do not want to put my hopes up to high knowing that it'll get crushed the day after. Am I too young to say that I'm looking for a serious relationship? Maybe I am but I consider myself old and matured enough to venture into this new world. After all, I'll be haeding towards it in a few months. Why a serious relationship? Because I know thast ny partner would help me go through it as he had before, tapi yela. Kita sekadar plan dan Allah menentukan. Like I said in God knows how many posts before, a girl can dream and I don'tget bored just thinking about it. I must say that life haven't been treating me well. But hey, who am I to complain? Am I not making the best out of everything? I think I am. Am I doing the wrong things? I don't think I do. Entah la. I think out of everyone I know, I have by far the most downs than ups in life. Nak kata nak give up, that's not how it should be. Nak go through it, haven't I been through enough?

It's sad to see how a couple can split up. A family gone their own separate ways. It should never end that way. Every problem has a loop hole. It's a matter of wanting to search for it or not. I guess that's why my relationships always end with such pain. Ego beats the hell out of us. Neither one of us wants to give in. I just want the guy who comes after me soon would be the guy who would change my whole perspective of looking into a guy's heart. :)