Ahmed Nadzmi.

This may be a stupid move but I don’t care. I can’t stand keeping it any longer. I don’t want to keep his name a secret. I hope eventually this will get to him. I don’t know if this will be the talk of the year about in school, I just need to get things clear with.

I fell hard for you Ahmed Nadzmi. Real hard. And no, I do not know why. But what I know is, it’s really something I should’ve not done. I know you since Standard Four. Liked you in Form Three and you went away early Form Four. The feelings just sort of fade away. I did not fall for when you came back this year. Not until you started telling me your problems. At that moment, I know you trusted me. It took awhile for me to fall for you again. I did think of not liking you because I’m afraid to lose a friend. But it just happened. I didn’t mean to fall for you. It could happen to anyone. Your hugs comforted me when I cried about fighting with a friend. Your hugs made me feel loved. I know you don’t mean anything about your hugs. I know you feel awkward about me falling for you, I would too. I just want you to know that I’m trying damn hard to not like you just to talk to you balik. And I doubt that’ll happen. But hey, a girl can dream. Kan? I have to say I miss having you around. I miss those comforting hugs of yours. UGH! I’m so stupid. Ahmed Nadzmi, I’m sorry if this post annoys you. Hate me? Please don’t. I’ve got no guts to talk to you. I hope this count as talking. I’m sorry I fell for you. Please ignore the fact that I like you and come talk to me. Take note that I’m still trying to not like you. Give me credits for that. Sounds desperate much? Whatever. I’ve done my part and this is what I want you to know.

Xx, Hamimsatar.