okayh, where do i start?

i havent been updating my blogs for days. and i dont seem to remember anything that much anymore. i feel like im having Alzheimer or something. it freaks me out at times. but anyway, i'll try writing up as much as i could remember. ;)

on god knows what day, as far as i could remember,its sunday. we, definition, family, went to behrang for my granduncle's wedding. yea, granduncle. we left the house at about 9 in the morning and reached there 2 hours later. the trip was, ok. i was in red baju kurung. with heels. for the first time, i didnt end up with blisters. heh. sampainya kat behrang, tok teh came and greet us. you know la kampung weddings, kita punya la dress up lawa2, mereka datang dengan jeans and fake polo t shirts. haihh.. the tent was divided into two, one for male and the other for female. i'm like, "dude? its a wedding. ure supposed to be gathering eachother" botho benor. the girls masuk dalam rumah, so, mama,ain,jim and i, went in. and theres a group of old ladies doing the marhaban or something like that. thats the first wedding that i went wish such thing. and all my grandaunts are just annoying me with questions like "alif mana?" "alif tak datang?" everyone keeps on asking where the freaking hell is abang. for those who does not know, abang is stuck in Bukit Jalil for a month. shooting a reality tv shows for future footballers. called Super Soccer Stars. OK!? kapish? haih, its like, i turn here theyre talking about abang. i turn there, theyre still talking about abang. pisses me off. and once tok ndak came and tegur mummy, she said "fiza panggil mak ndak kan, jadi alif kena panggil tok ndak lah!" and mummy laughed and turned to me and said, "abang je kena panggil dia tok ndak, hampa semua takyah!" sampai macamtu. haih. then makan, after makan took pictures with all the other granduncles and grandaunties. which, i dont know who they were. im not surprised about it though, i mean, daddy barely even knows them and his their nephew. haihh. after picture session, daddy talked sekejap and we were being very bandarians took out or fan and fan ourselves. others would stare in disbelief. heh. then we took off. it was raining and we planned to beli baju sekolah, at jalan TAR. aih, all those smells. i mean, the people there. not me. ;) heh. tukar baju dalam kereta. i was a pro at that cause usually after work, mummy would ask whether i brought extra clothes ke tak, so she'd bring my clothes and tukar in the car. professional at that. no special training. ahah! then sampai KL, parked at aaaaa, mana ahh? tah. jalan pi ke kamdar. kamdar's baju is too big for me and its size S! imagine that. oh and the fitting room, macam naik lift. dizzy dizzy. then singgah globe, globe pun takde size. eesh,pissing me off to the top like mad dog. then pi ke kamdar lagi satu, ada size. okla, bangga lah jap. heh:) dah beli semua, masuk kereta, im like, "KFC jom!" and daddy macam, "mim belanja? ayah ok je." so yea, my treat. went to KFC pusat bandar. best KFC place yet. i ordered lah kan, since im paying. beli thrift plate,4 ala carte nasi ayam,cheesy wedges, whipped potato and coleslaw. all in all cost RM54.30. while i waited for my food to come at the counter, the staffs were like , "M utk apa ah?" replied, "M untuk cicak Man." and im like who the hell are they talking abt? baru la aku sedar that they were talking about me. i was wearing my M necklace. for those who does not know, M stands for Mim or Mohd fierdaus ;):) heh. then i pandang tempat lain, tied up my hair. that dude was like, "wah cantiknya rambut dia. wangi wangi!" aku macam, thanks. ahah! after that, tengah makan2, acap came in and ain shouted his name, he came and tegur my parents, and i pulled his pants. it was like dah bawah his ass already man! botho benor. oh oh,was on the phone with fierdaus from 10pm to 3am!!! =) love you babyyyy! ok, so thats how my day went on sunday.

On monday, i planned to go out with my friends. myra, ana and supposedly fawaa. but fawaa cant make it due to some unknown reasons. planned to go out to the curve. after zohor, i bla dari rumah. myra was already there. i miss that bitch of mine. and half an hour later, ana and alya showed up. my boyfriend ended up showing up an hour later. yea, an hour. myra wasnt surprised with his late presence. oh god, embarassing. my girlfriends and i lepak at teh tarik place. ana ordered sirap limau,myra sirap,alya bandung and me the odd one out,ordered teh o ais. heh;) my favourite! my boyfriend showed up and duduk sekejap and bla to the bank. then he came back and sat next to ana. pisses me off. then turned to sit at another table. lagi membengangkan. went and pay, i ended up getting all the coins us girls fought about not wanting it. so, we walked away and i was trying to put my coins in my purse la kan. walked slow,trying to open the button la ni la tu la. kan,so lambat. the girls walked first and fierdaus and his friend walked behind them and i was left alone. i walked away. bla ke 7e, toilet, tumbletots. and ok,teh tarik place and 7e is distance apart. dah sampai 7e baru dia realize i was missing. shows how important i was to him lah kan. i mean, he'd rather ditch me than his friends. he called tons of times and i told him i dont know where i was. blablabla. called myra and told her where i was. she came. luckily just them without fierdaus and hery. he keeps on calling me and he didnt know what he did wrong. i mean, hello! u walked away, u didnt realize i was missing. and it was obvious. yet, he didnt know what he did wrong. me and my girlfriends walked and lepak at mph, membaca la konon. heh;):) he called, i hung up or just past the phone to myra. he showed up at mph, grabbed my arm, twisted it so i could face him and said "kau nak aku lempang kau ke sekarang? i'm really pissed. u treat me macam anjing!" i was struggling la, trying to escape from his grip, eventually i got out and he hugged me and said "sorry!" babi, kau dah treat aku macam apa then nak sorry. like nothing happened. so,yea. i kept quiet. silence kill. he called like non stop. some with him being mad at me, twist and turning the story like im at fault. some with him regretting what he did. went to ikea and beli hotdog rm2 tuh. heh. then he came to me, held me at my waist. and at that time,i wanted to puke. why? cause i drank teh tarik. means, with milk. milk means, yuck yuck. i was like, damnit. aku beli couple seat, duduk dengan dia. aduihhhhh..! so,i went in first then he showed up. sat next to me. kissing my shoulders. i backed away from him. he sat away from me and at times kissed my shoulders again asking if i was mad, i just ignored him. by the end of the movie, well climax of the movie,i grabbed his arm,hugging it. i mean,i cant stay mad at him forever so i put my ego down and talked to him. he kissed me and that was all. bodo kan. when i was mad,teringin sangat nak cakap. bila dah cakap,ignore aku plak. then after the movie, i dared him to lempang me. thats what he wanted, tapi tak berani. dira called, tanya kat mana. myra and ana and alya and hery was missing. so, fierdaus and i,lepak at mcd. aku sorang je melantak. oh and btw,in the movies,my stomach berbunyi. memalukan. heh. makan mcchicken. and was still hungry but tak berani berkata apa2. ehhe. fierdaus left me hanging with alya and ana while he went out and smoke. it was his third one that day. haihhh. we bla ke fos,kononnya cari baju. macam takde benda sangat la nak buat kan. kat sana pun, he didnt layan me. he was browsing around w hery. our date didnt seem like we even dated. he spends most of his time with hery and avoiding me while i lepak w my girlfriends. at 7, i balik. asked him for a hug and he didnt give me any. asked for a kiss, didnt happen too. so, bla empty handed. balik, i texted my girlfriends thanking them for their time and was sorry for the flaws that happened. fierdaus balik, called me and said he'd make it up to me by calling me and not ditching me again. and as expected, he did. about an hour or so. he was talking to someone else while i was on the phone with him. i hung up and he didnt call back. i changed to my maxis number and fawaa called. oh em gee oh dee, i miss her. she asked me how was my day and i told her everything that happened and she told me about her day. and exes are just a pain in the ass. certain ex. she was pissed and so was i. but we did get to laugh here and there while talking and mostly talking about boyfriends and ex boyfriends. heh. fawaa, aku rindu kau ok! i know, u never read my blog but yea, i miss u la dumb blonde. the talk with fawaa was about 15-20 minutes of us spilling out our day. and fierdaus called. i was pissed, rejected his phone once and told fawaa he's calling and she said go answer it and i did. so, bye fawaa! love ya!:) heh. and we talked. first hour was just us fighting, second hour was us apologizing, promising things and just bercinta. it all ended up,ok. not good but ok. ;) heh.